Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Yikes!!!

It's been a while. I know I shouldn't have kept you waiting...okay okay, so I started this blog with the talking intro to Brittney Spear's song, "ice". It happens. No really though. I completely forgot I started this blog and doubt anyone even has read any of it. Anyways, I'm at a point where I need another top 10 things. Here we go:

Top 10 reasons I'm so "lucky" and grateful in San Francisco
1. friends
2. laughter
3. sunsets and sun rises
4. Oceans
5. Walks
6. My job/kids
7. sierra nevada
8. the gorgeous views
9. The Art Bistro
10. Geary Ave. (Get's me anywhere I need to go!)

Monday, July 7, 2008

Things that make me happy (in no particular order)

1. Snuggling
2. Fits of uncontrollable laughter
3. Family time
4. Hanging out with friends, and saying nothing at all
5. Poor man sangrias
6. Hugs
7. Lands End view point in San Francisco
8. Talking to my friends from home
9. Putting together a great new outfit out of old clothes
10. Seeing people in love


Just kind of felt like I needed a reminder of how beautiful the simple joys in life really are.

Namaste
XOXO

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Sometimes, you just gotta get away

So this week was pretty eventful!!! Monday, my roommate surprised me with free tickets to club level seats at the Cubs/Giants game that her boss gave her. I was like a kid in the candy store at AT&T park!!!!! First time ever in the same zip code as the cubs and it was seriously a dream come true...not to mention we won 9-2 and DeRosa hit a home run and then a grand slam!!! I a measly two beers and shared garlic fries with Annie....next day though. UGH. I got knocked out with a nasty 24 hour flu! I associated the vomiting to the food at the game and so I will never go near garlic fries again however, I know it was not food poisioning. I was so sick, I actually had to call Erin and told her on the phone..."I need you...." Those of you who know me will realize in order for me to want someone around me when I"m sick, I must be reallly sick. Luckily, it only lasted about a day.

The next day, I was still not feeling my usual self but insisted I made it to the other Cubs game I had gotten tickets for...so I made it, and we won, 6-5...this game was closer but in the end, the best team won.

Today, I feel like myself but need to get away for a bit. It's always nice to take a break and get away you know what I mean? The Suttons' parents are renting a place in Point Reyes and I've never been there. I'm driving up with Sean, the older twin, tonight to spend the night up there to relax, hang out and just get away. I need a little break from this scene. Nothing against this fabulous city...even in Buffalo, I liked to get away here and then. Brian, the other twin, told me they had a hot tub up there and Annie, my roommate told me Point Reyes was beautiful so I am really looking forward to tonight.

Happy 4th of July to everyone!!!! This has always been a bittersweet holiday for me and so spending it here in SF tomorrow with some of my closest friends here means so much to me. I'm really looking forward to it.

My parents are at camp this weekend...makes me miss and feel nostalgic over the good old days of hiking, bon fires and going "into town" at the B&B with my wonderful family...lesson here friends: don't take the little events in life for granted. Relish in your traditions because soon enough, they will really only be fond memories :) XOXO

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Garden State and some thoughts

First of all, if you have not seen the movie Garden State, watch it. If you have seen it, watch it again with an open mind and really pay attention to the dialogue and the lessons within them.

Here's to living the questions as they are...here's to opening our minds to discover that who we are, is not so bad. Pay attention to yourself and be who you are. When stumbling on a difficult decision, think about how it will make you feel, and not how it will make you look.

Finding jobs out here as not been as easy as I first anticipated but things are moving along. I finally got a full time nannying job here which is an awesome gig actually. I have 3 day weekends and it's more than enough to live on here in San Francisco. Honestly though, in my interview, I told the mom that this was not what I expected to do out here but somehow, I gravitated to it because it's what I do best and it's what I enjoy. The teaching job will fall into place for me in the fall too. I have faith. And if not, then I am fortunate to have this nanny position to tie me over for as long as I need to. If you think about it, how lucky am I?

At the end of Garden State, Zach's character says that if he doesn't leave, he will not find the answers but in the end, he finds the answers will be found right where he is, back at home. For me, right before I left, I found myself having that same conversation with both myself and people I was close to...if I never leave, I'll never know. And unlike Mr. Braff, i didnt look back. I feel so lucky to have what I have at home, the questions, the experience and the support to find answers to those questions and most importantly a beautiful and strong foundation to explore myself.

And so, I am here, in San Francisco...LIVING MY LIFE. I am so grateful for my friends out here who I've made instantly. It's as though this city was waiting for me and I was ready for her. Mary has been such a blessing and has opened so many doors to meeting people but I believe it is truly my own openess that has allowed me to connect to people on such a personal, real level.

I was telling a friend the other night here how I've made some wonderful circles of friends in less than a month here and yet I will never feel far from my support and love at home. My friends and family in Buffalo I have not forgotten about you. It's because of you that I am confident in my life here. It's because of our experiences and our eternal bond that I am able to appreciate what I've made here. I miss you and love you all so much.

I am so happy. I am so happy. Brian actually told me the other night "I've never seen you glow continuiously like this"....I'm glowing, and I know it. I hope you all find that spark in you and allow yourselves to live the questions as they are, love yourself as you are, and find yourself glowing in all you have to live for.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I've made it

Yesterday, I ventured through the mountains of northern California, picked up my friend Mary, then meandered about bridges and tunnels until I reached it: San Francisco...after a 5 day "bumpy" road trip with my mother, California finally welcomed me. Now that I'm here, I'm questioning how I am going to pull this off. But instead of worrying, I hopped in my car today and drove all around the city. I started from Mary's apartment in Sunset, to my apartment and neighborhood in Richmond, Haight/Ashbury, Golden Gate Park, downtown, the Embarcadero, North beach, Lombard Street (no, did not drive down it though), then ended up at the beach. I am sure I hit every pot hole in the city and ran a few red lights without knowing they were there. Who's genius idea was it to put lights on the side of the street?

My original plan was to bus hop. You know, blindly go from one bus to the next to see where I end up... Then I realized that might be stupid. At least I am confident though in my sense of direction here in the Bay Area. I will tackle the bus routes once I move into my own apartment. Speaking of which...I will probably get in there by Sunday. I told Mary last night before we went to bed that I've been bed hopping for the past week. I feel like a whore. I want a place to call my own. Let me be pure again.

As for what I miss...Have you ever heard the song "Jericho" by Sugarland? It goes something like this..."Goodbye to memories that I"ve saved. Goodbye to all the friends I've made. Goodbye to all the home I've ever known....small town Jericho (Buffalo). " Yeah, it gets me when I hear it. My friends, you're all on my mind and pitter pattering on my heart. I miss you. My lovely sister, hang in there, I love you. My father, you are bombarded with my left overs, I'm sorry. Mom, you're about an hour away from me right now and will be coming into the city tomorrow. As I do yoga tonight with Mary and her new man, I will wish you by my side.

I have to end this for now. But I'm leaving myself a note. In the near future, I want to talk about the difference between coincidence and fate. Do we read signs? Peace and Love. Namaste.